Made

What am I doing here? As I lay in my bed with a 3 inch thick memory foam on top with my three pillows surrounding me watching”The Big Bang Theory”, I wonder. I wonder what am I doing worthwhile with my life? Am I making a difference? Will someone remember the ways I impacted their life in the end? Do all of the worries about how to cut my hair, what sorority I may get into, will I eat turkey or ham during Thanksgiving, matter? If I’m not put on this earth to make a difference in at least one person’s for the better, why else would I be put here? I’m just one in six billion, right? Wrong. I may only be one person, but I can make a difference, at least in one person’s life. As Mother Theresa would say, “If you can’t feed a hundred, feed one.” I will feed one.

My life has been relatively easy, but that does not mean that I was not made for something. Sure I can’t tell people of a heart wrenching testimony about how I was addicted to drugs and near death when my friend intervened and brought my back to life and showed me that there is a faith worth living for, but maybe I can be that friend to someone.

Everywhere I look, people are bearing burdens that seem unmanageable for the average human: the loss of a loved one, helping a suicidal friend, a heart breaking for the orphaned. Sometimes I wonder why we care so deeply for other people who sometimes do not even want to be helped. Why do it when it cuts to the core of our soul? Because we love. We were called to love. We received an unmeasurable love that overflows from our lives into the lives of those around us. We receive endless grace that washes away our filthy hearts and turns us into a beautiful treasure. No, we may not make sense to people who have not experienced this kind of mercy, but we care for others we know what it feels like to be lost as well. We were lost, wandering blind in the black of night, groping for anything solid, searching. We did not know what we were searching for.

We were made. Made to love. Made to cherish. Made to laugh. Made to cry. Made to rejoice. Made to mourn. Made to glorify. Made to encourage. Made to make a difference.